week 30

this is week 30
i am sorry i say
anata ga inakute sabishii
the meaning i keep it to myself
why do you haunt me in my dreams
love me, or get out of my FUCKING DREAMS!
If i had a wish
ANY wish to be granted
knowing that i cann ot have you
because i cant force a feeling into your heart
i would like to ask
to completely loose my mind
my memories of everyone
my family mi friends myself
my life
be clustered
lifetime
in a cell
a mental hospital room
whatever
in 4 walls
finishing with my insanity transformation
i hold tight to a piece of paper and a pen
when y grind my teeth in my pain
thingking about you until i cry myself to sleep
sometimes waking up in the middle of the night
screaming your name
begging for salvation
asking for your forgiveness and redemption
she talks to me
everynight
deeper desires of destruction
even await in my dreams
i dont know who i am
holydays re comming
i already asked to work all december
if i could i would like to work 24 hours a day
i play hardmy violin
i train hard kick boxing
i write and read fearlessly
i fight everyday to break my back
doing anything i can
so i can be recognized
so maybe just maybe
you can look at me someday
if i become a succesful person
and important person
there are a lot more options
so i can find you again
also i work
llike a maniac
so i can save enough
to visit paris with my own eyes
with or without you
fairytales can have many endings
just "listen to my story..."
-------------------------------sabrina---------------------------
song of the week U2 I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For Lyrics
I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you
I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for...


quote of the week
"is not over, on my side is never over" by me