week 28

your smile hunte me down
i was nice hoping and believing
i was calm thinking that maybe someday
if i tried hard enough
you would look at me
why are u so cruel
why you gave me hope taske it away then
give me hope again
just to ive me my final blow
i3 finally know what u mean by
"i wont answer that"
when i asked you if that night together changed something
and you know what it even worse?
no matter how hard i try
i will never stop feeling
i will never stop loving
if i had one wish
just one
i wuld pick to loose my memory
lose my memories of you
because they kill
i wont quit
im loyal to my muse
as i am loyal to my word
i will wait
i love you
like i believe no one ever did before
and never will
because if you asked me to take my life away
what i would nt do to see you happy?
is true i dont want you as a friends
how could i ?
dont you see how cruel it is?
but i want to see you around
just to make sure ure doing fine
and if not help you
teh best way i can
give you whatever makes you happpy
it hurts me to know this is your choice
yo know my mistake never had your forgiveness
even when yours were forgotten a long yime ago
why it hurts even more than before?
if you want to be left alone
fine you wont see me again
but dont spect em to dissapear
ill be just behind the wall
as i have always been
i know you wont go to my bday
maybe is better
i dont need to build more memories
that will only hunt me down
no one ever would love u like i did
like i do
like i will keep doing
i know it
im not saying im the best around
but
i know a broken heart can hate
as much as it can love
and can leeploving
even after broken
i will wait
so maybe someday
you realize this
and give me a chance
i will go away
to run from the pain
but cant do the same
with my memories of you
so i just can keep writting
on this filthy blog
and hide my tears
between this 4 walls
i love you my muse
amd i actually really mean it.
its been week 28 since you walked away
i know you are doing fine
love of my life

quote of the week

# The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned


song of the week
The time is close now, the end is near
My walk through the valley, trails of fear
I feel empty, my penance overdue,
I guess it's too late now to be with you
I'm extremely frightened of what will surely be
I sold myself, the death of me
I know you can't forgive me I know I'm on my own,
I've betrayed you I walk alone

What exactly is the meaning of this
Just pawns in your twisted game
Severe pain for the lie I'm livin'
For a love I never could betray

[Bridge]
Question me not say the lord unto thee
You have chosen your own faith and your own destiny
Denied of this life is what you are to be
You have chosen your own faith and your own destiny

Lord I pound my fists at you
Won't you just let me die
Would I not suffer enough
No inner peace no after life

[Repeat Bridge]

I did what I thought was right
All for the love of my life
I know it's sad but true
Something is very wrong
Condemned to suffer so long
For a love so true

The question that lies within
Is so hard to understand
It still tears at me
And in my dying breath
My heart holds no regrets
I wouldn't change a thing

My spirit begins to rise to the heavenly skies
Just to be shunned away by you
Now all I want is to die, no streets of gold in the sky
And I wash my hands of you

[Bridge]
Rising to the heaven's light
Just to plead for death
Just to be denied

Rising to the heaven's light
Just to plead for death
Just to be denied

Ooohhh, I know you can't forgive me
I know I'm on my own
I know that I've betrayed you
You know I walk alone
You know I walk alone

I walk, I walk the trail of fear
I pound my fists at you
I'm shunned away by you
I wash my hands of you

Why won't you let me die
Why won't you let me die
Why won't you let me die