had happened a lot in only six months
the person i loved and the person that i keep loving
just pushed me away
several times
I was in the hospital
about to die
I had one of the toughest fights in my life
in which i had to use a blade and hurt a person
otherwise the person would hurt me and the person i was trying to protect
I was abused sexualy
by a person i thought would never do anything to anyone
a harmless bastard
i lost my best friend in hands of his girlfriends
its been a few months since i saw him last time
i discovered i should get away from people who all tehy do
is talk at my back
i learned to play violin
or i am trying to learn
i discovered a person i used to not to have relationship with
is now the person i cherish the most, my best friend, my confident.
I discovered i am not the only one with another alter ego to control
i have a friend who suffers even worse because of his disease
i was fired
the first time in my life
I was hired
in a company i believed would be unreachable
I composed a song
When i always hide my poetry to only myself
I kissed a person i did not like
And i knew what breaking a heart felt
is not something i liked to do
i Felt what having a broken heart mean
the physical symptoms are amazing, you really have feel how your heart breaks
the coldness the lack of air
your head about to xplode
your troath burning
the whole pain experience
I was with a person to forget another person
Now i know is just a fail
i learned how to be a doll
a cold porcelain toy, and i dont mind being used anymore.
I tried drugs
and i never had been that much in the street
as the last months
i havent seen my mother
neither had she called
in 6 months.
i grew up
i matured a little
everything had happened in the past 6 months....
but you know what this all taught me, little kitten?
Stick to what you believe. If you try hard to get something
and can not get it
just Try harder
follow your heart
dont listen to the negatives around you
this week is ending
i just hope you are able to make it to my bday
little neko
i love you
look at me
please
just look at me
i love you
like no one ever did.
look at me
love me
like before
just look at me
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Quote of the week
"will wait u my little one... will be waiting as always has been, cause I know you are out there, I know you are waiting for me as well, I did mistakes in the past, people did with me as well, but now is time to wait, to wait to find you, cause I learn from my experiences and errors and will be here with my eyes opened so I will meet you someday!" by a little neko
Song of the week
"What I Wouldn't Do"
If we were children I would bake you a mud pie
Warm and brown beneath the sun
Never learned to climb a tree but I would try
Just to show you what I'd done
Oh what I wouldn't do
If I had you, babe, I had you
Oh what I wouldn't do
If I had you, babe
If I were old, my dearest, you would be older
But I would crawl upon your lap
Wrap a blanket round our frail little shoulders
And I'd die happily like that
Oh what I wouldn't do
If I had you, babe, I had you
Oh what I wouldn't do
If I had you, babe, if I had you
So lace your hands round the small of my back and I will kiss you like a king
I will be your bride, I'll keep you warm at night
I will sing, I will sing
It was now and we were both in the same place
Didn't know how to say the words
With my heart ticking like a bomb in a birdcage
I left before someone got hurt
Oh what I wouldn't do
If I had you, babe, I had you
Oh what I wouldn't do
If I had you, babe, if I had you
