week5

voices
all i hear
on my head
noises
every one else
you may
think im insane
and hell yeah
i might be
but didnt i
warned you?
i tried
i tried
good intentions?
always denied
this is my world
now this is who i am
and where i belong
is ok if im not loved
anymore
is ok if im even
hated
i wait for your return
as a lover wait
for his dead husband
i know you are not coming back
if im not worth
one person like you
what am i worth of?
i have a disgrace
im resistant
to pills
to poison
to bruises
and slashes
looks like i am inmortal
would you shoot the bulled for me?
Would you pull the trigger on my heart?
maybe i could die
if you ask me to
or if you choke me
with your own hands
im fully awake
im losing it
i tried acids
lsd
last weekend
my mistake
i need to sleep
not to awake
i need you
your voice
your arms
any other
human being around me
is just disgusting
because they
all lie
you were the only
real one
so dont ask me
to forget
i listen to people
the typical "you are worth of so much"
they know nothing
im worth
what i have
and if dont have you
funny thing
im a plastic doll
made for you
or to be wasted
this is my week 5
without you
shame you dont like what you
see because this is me
i wish your return
and wait
as a widow awaits for his marine
even knowing
there were not survivors
at war
my week literally sucked
best part was the weekend i believe
i was with a good friend
distracting my mind from you
even though it was never posible
yesterday i celebrated
our first kiss annyversary
dancing under the rain
as my lips
only whispered your name
its been 5 weeks since you walked away
baby i hope you are doing fine
my ever after sweetheart
Song of the week
Hurt johnny cash
-"you are someone else im still right here"
Quote of the week
I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allan Poe