Week 4

Hi darling, i hope you are doing fine
the feelings of pain and sorrow inside me are sleeping
i know is not the best way
but i need to maintain myself asleep
with drugs, pills, alcohol, whatever i can find
i know im slowly killing myself
as soon as i start feeling my body
the pain always come back
i was wishing you so much at Alito´s party
i felt so full with hope when you tried to kiss me
and touched me
but ...i know you
if i did something
you will probably act cold at morning
and nothing would change
and i would be even more hurt ed
i wonder if you still have feelings for me
wondering hurts
I hope your girl treats you well
I don't wish your heart be broken again
but you know
you will always have a heart that belongs to you
mine...
How was your week so far?
Im doing fine i guess
i remain asleep
sometimes walking under the rain
others just lying on my bed
did i told you i got fired?
yeah they told me the account was overstaffed
I cant be with nothing to do
i need to keep myself busy
so i can not think of you
i will start in HP in may
Destiny is kind of cruel dont you think?
I will work in the same company as you
so maybe i will see you around
how the fuck will i take
the sight of you
when im working and im not asleep
I have went out with different guys
why every one likes me?
they dont get i want to be alone?
i want you to be my last first kiss
until i die
time is supposed to heal me
baby let me tell you for my is doing worse
nightmares don't stop
every time i trip
i see you next to me
i hear your voice
i feel your touch
Im becoming insane
sometimes i wonder
if tomorrow is worth of living
im still waiting my kitten
i wont let you go
i know is not healthy
i know it will bring more pain
but a promise is a promise
i will never break mines
is funny
i finally decided my tattoo art
is going to be a pair of broken wings in my back
the design is kind of Greek
i lost my cellphone
so i probably get a new one with my next payment
im feeling lonely
i lost all the texts you send me
i havent erased one since i got that phone
i liked to read
how much you used to love me
my kitten
i would shed every drop of blood
just to be in your arms once more
its been 4 weeks since you walked away
i bet you are doing great
im happy for you honey
your pain is my pain
and i got enough weight on my back right now
i miss you
my brokenhearted self
is screaming your name
remember the video i made
you never saw it
its on youtube
tomorrow it would be our monthversary 11th
i will drop a white rose in your front door
every 30th i will
until my heart stop aching for this pain
as long as i wait for your return
i wait, hopelessly wait
because i know you moved on
but im stuck here
because that was my choise
im giving myself to the insanity
and i decided you are the one to free me
you are not coming
thats more than clear
but remember
i live in my own world
and in my world
i am the princess
and you my prince
living happily ever after
dancing between fireflies.
its been 4 weeks since you left me broken hearted
i wonder how was your week
sweet love of mine???
-----SONG OF THE WEEK---------Hello alone- amberlin.
"All I need is ten cents for the bullet
I feel helpless, sleeping at best, waiting for your return
Are you ever coming home?"
----QUOTE OF THE WEEK-----
As I sit awake and in the middle of the night,
I'm thinking of all the things I should have said before you left,
and maybe, just maybe, you'd still be here.