Week 1

Im sorry i did not write last week
I love you and i would never forget...
Its been one week when i last saw you

i have to act cold

so you can not hurt me anymore

but i miss you

i check my email and cellphone

waiting for you to call me back

still is always empty

i had so many things to say

when i tried to say good bye

But your cold gaze

delete every word from my mind

im gonna take your advise

im gonna go on

im gonna continue breathing

if anyone ask me

i hate you

deep inside

i know

hate is not

something my heart can hold

the note i gave you

speak the only truth

i wish you the best

i promise to wait

Everyplace is filled with memories

I do everything to forget

i bleed i trip i scream

i shut i run i fade

or at least to ease this coldness

i finally believe what is like to have my heart broken

there is a coldness in my lungs like cold air burning me

the coldness in the chest gets bigger

until it reach my shoulders

go down to the fingertips

and then down the spine

gets to my toes

leaving me paralized

then my stomach clinches in pain

and the scream burning my throat

starts to choke me

leaving me numb and hurted

leaving my eyes watery and my cheeks red and teary

i grind my teeth to be as quiet as possible

until i can get back to myself

and hide the pain

again
I tried to kill myself
and was in the hospital for 5 horrible days

this is my first letter since we are appart

i hope you are doing fine

im trying to survive

and wait hopelessly for something

that will never come to me

you.
I wonder how is your week darling?

---------------------------sabrina---------------------
Song of the Week: Think of you by a fine frenzy
"Just to put your mind at ease
You don't owe me anything
You paid me well in memories"

Quote of the week: "As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you"