Week 3

Dreams
all i had to shield from the pain
had became the reason of my insomnia
every night i dream of you
I began my transformation
is like being in a cliff staring down the abyss
the salty wind caress my skin
my mind play tricks
always mess with me
sometimes i hear your voice at night
i feel your touch the unique way you used to touch me
i can smell your cologne every morning on my pillow
and i can hear you breathing at night next to me
i dream every night
sometimes i run for you
sometimes from you
sometimes you save me
sometimes i chase you
sometimes i am being chased
sometimes i save you
sometimes i kiss you
sometimes we fight
but you are always there
the smell of your perfume caress my nights
when i close my eyes is you i see
I see edelweiss
and forests
and fireflies
i see roses
i see you
its been 3 weeks since you walked away
from what i have heard you are doing just fine
looks like you are better off without me
some people even say you have already replaced me
is funny how love can be forgotten in a few days
and in other cases
just get bigger with the distance
i wait but not hope
i love you
i will always do
i am here living in my own private hell
there are so many things i want to tell you
at work im doing fine
i have more tasks because i need to be busy and dont think about you
but is just not possible you are my first sight at morning
and my last though at night
your laugh still echoes in this 4 walls
im just ordering my room
and i put your memories in a black box
and hide it under my bed
is like your grave you know?
My daddy was at the hospital
My mom is also not doing so fine
but i have t be strong
even when you are gone
i have to keep on trying because of them
in ten days we will have a montversary
I will have a monthversary, for you... i dont even know if you care, anymore
I can go and dance with the fireflies alone
just like almost a year ago
you can see fireflies at night
i was at the mt. last week
Issaac and I went to the river to talk
i needed to hear someone
so i can escape from the echoing voice in my head
looks like guys dont understand
im a doll heartless
i want no one near me
i dont need a lover
i dont want to be hurted
i need my love back but you already moved on
i like to think
i was frozen
For me it is march 29th 2010 forever
Rainy season is starting
i was already invited to dance in the windy storms
back at the anthena where i always go
When i want to be alone
Rain washes my pain away
because i can freely cry
and scream and yell your name
its been 3 weeks since you walked away
its been a though week honey
but im just holding on
and waiting
even though the person i wait will never come
i miss you
i wonder how was your week honey ---------------------Sabrina-----------------------------------
Song of the week "fireflies " by ron pope "things never last, That's why fireflies flash."
Quote of the week ""Maybe one day I'll be able to tear away a part of me and let you go.""

By the way... 25 months ago i saw you for the first time, remember the night we walked under the city lights, everywhere is full of memories of you.