week 34,35,36

This is almost the whole entry for november.i have been so numb all november
Coldness is killing my pain
coldness is taking me away
and i dance and i dance
between raindrops
that threaten me to damp my wings
im a buterfly
a dying butterfly
still i wont letmyself fall
i love you neko
i love you so much
i want tyou so bad
why are you gone?
what did i do?
i loved you too much
i still do
i dream of you at night
you have the key to set me free
or put me in hell
you are the rain that threatens me
you are the wind that keeps me floating
you are you are you are
im not afraid to say i am
im not afraid to say i do i want i love i miss
but i will never say i give up
not to you
not today
not ever
keep the finger on the trigger
the red laser light in the middle of my forehead
keep me tied in the middle of the dessert
keep me with the razor in my wrist
keep me frozen in my autistic world.
Keep keep keep
torturing me every night untiil i fade to black.
This time i could not write week after week.
Why?
im so numb to count time lately.
all i know is that i miss you
all i know is that im cold
all i know is that im lonely.
All i know is that i wont have you back.

---------------------------------------------------------------Sabrina
We both lie silently still
in the dead of the night
Although we both lie close together
We feel miles apart inside

Was it something I said or something I did
Did my words not come out right
Though I tried not to hurt you
Though I tried
But I guess that's why they say

Chorus:
Every rose has its thorn
Just like every night has its dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has its thorn

Yeah it does

I listen to our favorite song
playing on the radio
Hear the DJ say loves a game of easy come and easy go
But I wonder does he know
Has he ever felt like this
And I know that you'd be here right now
If I could let you know somehow
I guess

Chorus

Though it's been a while now
I can still feel so much pain
Like a knife that cuts you the wound heals
but the scar, that scar will remain

Solo

I know I could saved a love that night
If I'd known what to say
Instead of makin' love
We both made our separate ways

and now I hear you found somebody new
and that I never meant that much to you
To hear that tears me up inside
And to see you cuts me like a knife
I guess

Chorus


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Saliva - Rest

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did,
It has not healed with time...
It just shot down my spine.
You look so beautiful tonight,
Remind me how you laid us down,
And gently smiled,
Before you destroyed my life...

Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
You got much closer than I thought you did,
I'm in your reach,
You held me in your hands...

But could you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Could you find, could you find in your heart?
(Could you find, could you let me rest in pieces)
Could you find, could you find in your heart?
(Could you find, could you let me rest in pieces)
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Everytime I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do, oh

You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice

[Chorus:]
(Chaque fois que tu t'en vas)
You just bring me down
(Je pr©tends que tout va bien)
So I'm counting the tears 'til I get over you

Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like
To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never tried
We both know we can't change it
But we both know we'll just have to face it

[Chorus]

If only I could give you up
But would I want to let you off of this soapbox baby?
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice

[Chorus]

We both know that I'm not over you
I'm not over you