week 33

This is week 33
i crawl in this monotony
s spend halloween with l30
it was fun to be with him
just chilling
i liked it
then i remembered what i was doing
last year halloween
and all the pain
just slap me on the face
hold myself tight
keep drinking
keep smoking
keep faking
until i worn out
you walked away
why must you do this?
i hate myself for loving you the way i do
a love that wont let itself die
even when i try to kill it
even if i dont want to
i cans say anuthing else
as this week i was most of the tiome not awake.
im lonely
im xtreme lonely
i think its time to go back to live between robes
and medication smells
love of my life
i wish you are doing fine
xmas time is killing
me
just as kro said
baby steps..one at the time.

--------------------------------Sabrina------------------------
Song of the week
Lyrics to Dream Of You :
I've been here all the time
as far as i know doing right
i've always waited for the moment
that you would come through my door
but this brought loneliness ... so far
i lay my hand onto my heart
is this a life i want to live?
is this the dream i had of you?

... the dream i had of you?

now i'm standing here alone
waiting on my own
for something that will fill the emptiness inside...
the moment that you're mine
bit this is loneliness ... i know
i lay my hand onto my soul
is this what life has got to give?
is this the dream i had of you?

... the dream i had of you?
-schiller-


Quote of the week

"I dream of you when I'm asleep, you even appear when I'm awake daydreaming. There is no escaping you. I just wish it was true."
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